I asked God to direct me. After many nights of pleading and reflecting, I chose to apply for graduate school. As I dropped my transcript envelopes in the mail to begin their 2,250 mile journey to Arizona, I was uncertain what the outcome would be. But, I believed and trusted that things would some how work out. And...they did. I'm grateful for where I am today. I'm completely uncertain what the future holds in terms of where I'll be when this part of my journey is over: what my first real job will be, where my first real job will be, and more importantly, where A and I will be. For the first time ever, I'm okay with that. God calls us to incredible things and sometimes they're as simple as living in the present.
I've realized that I've missed out on a lot by being so futuristic. Life in the present is better than I ever thought it would be and exactly what I needed. I'm finding myself becoming (little by little...it's a slow process) comfortable with living with a little uncertainty. Don't get me wrong, I'm still preparing for my future, but just in ways that don't cause me to forget to wholeheartedly and intentionally enjoy what I have right now.